Sometimes life hands you a lemon. And sometimes life is just a series of earthquakes, some small, some large, and then you finally get that last one that just shakes your entire world, your life, and even your very sense of self.
I just had that last earthquake... the one that shakes my very sense of self. And I need to talk about it, need to figure out how to solve the problem.
They tell me there is no cure. They tell me that I just have to learn to live with it. I am 61 years old. I have always been very comfortable with just who I am - a little different from everyone else, a little volatile at times, but a good person with good ideas. I'm successful in my field - I hold a doctorate. I have been married for more than half my life, although not to the same person. I have kids who love me, admire me and look up to me as a role model. I've always thought of myself as strong. I've always thought of myself as different, but normal. Unique. That was a good word. Unique.
And now I find out that I am someone totally different from who I thought I was.
My world has been shaken.
I have found that I am bi-polar... and now I need to evaluate my entire life to understand the past, the present, to plan for the future, and to know who I am and more importantly, HOW I am who I am.
So this blog will chronicle that journey.
Feel free to join me as I find my answers, make my decisions, and carry on with my life.
